{"id":14952,"date":"2024-01-11T23:11:41","date_gmt":"2024-01-11T23:11:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/?p=14952"},"modified":"2024-01-24T19:48:22","modified_gmt":"2024-01-24T19:48:22","slug":"28","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/2024\/01\/11\/28\/","title":{"rendered":"28"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>13 years of AA\/NA <em>(et al)<\/em> didn&#8217;t do anything whatsoever to get or keep me sober.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>This &#8220;scrawny diseased pervert&#8221; with a &#8220;short time to live&#8221; has 28 months clean.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>(I outlived the motherfucker who said that to me.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Now I want to outlive Stan because he thought that was so goddamned funny. But I don\u2019t know. Being left soaking in his own piss in a hospice and dependent on a gay black nurse with aids to wipe his ass would be kind of poetic too.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It&#8217;s been 15 months since I closed the &#8220;na chatroom&#8221; and I (mostly) forgot those people ever even existed. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"587\" height=\"268\" src=\"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/onceuponatime.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-15459\" srcset=\"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/onceuponatime.png 587w, https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/onceuponatime-300x137.png 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 587px) 100vw, 587px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;m sorry if I have sounded like a broken record.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>They drove me over the edge and that is what they clearly intended to do. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I had a good experience with the community in Los Angeles and wish them well. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But whenever I see one of those signs where I live now &#8211; or whenever one of those people attempts to contact me &#8211; I <strong>die<\/strong> a little inside.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/leavinaa.com\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\">Quitting the program<\/a> was the best thing I ever did.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Fuck this idea that I would have <em>anything<\/em> to do with sending them fresh meat that&#8217;s too messed up or naive to see them for exactly what they are.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>13 years of AA\/NA (et al) didn&#8217;t do anything whatsoever to get or keep me sober. This &#8220;scrawny diseased pervert&#8221; with a &#8220;short time to live&#8221; has 28 months clean. (I outlived the motherfucker who said that to me.) Now I want to outlive Stan because he thought that was so goddamned funny. But I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14952"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=14952"}],"version-history":[{"count":13,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14952\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15506,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14952\/revisions\/15506"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=14952"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=14952"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/v4.fadingstar.mx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=14952"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}